Today as I read and looked at the scriptures surrounding the stories of Job and Peter in the story, I became acutely aware of where my pride lies within my own life. In so many areas of Job's life he was righteous but that was just it he had great pride in the fact that he was righteous. Only God is righteous. In Peter's life he had great pride in his strength. Despite Jesus telling him to his face that his pride would lead him to his own destruction, he wouldn't listen. Peter even vehemently declared to Jesus' face that he was wrong.
I examine my own life and realize that is/was me. I was thin again and I thought I knew what to do to stay thin. NO way was I going to eat in such a way that would cause me to do contrary to that. Uh yeah...pride before the fall. As I stated before, it crept in slowly till the unhealthy eating overcame me and now I am 35 lbs overweight again.
I have a lot of work to do to get back to where I need to spiritually and physically. The task seems overwhelming especially with that vast number staring me in the face. Also, my health of my back and nervous system, and my advancing age (52) lead me to want to discouragement. My only hope is to repent of this pride and trust that God will lead me to renewed strength, health and His loving arms. Even if I am never completely healthy or slim, I know I have Christ and to cling to the guidance of his Holy Spirit, no matter what my outward appearance, is my joy and strength. I don't know how, but I know that He can lead me to conquer the demons that have entangled me.
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