Sunday, June 21, 2015

Bacon Sticky Buns


Today is Father's Day, and I have to share this fantastic recipe that I found on Pinterest. I changed it up slightly to the way I make bread & rolls.

The men in my house love bacon, so when I saw this recipe I knew I had winner for my husband's special day. I was right, he loved them. If you are want a delicious cheat day breakfast, this recipe is worth every yummy morsel, but warning this is a once (maybe twice) a year calorie thing. Thanks "Food Folk and Fun" blog.

Bacon Sticky Buns Recipe
Yields: 12 buns
Prep time: 3-4 hours, plus overnight to let dough rise if not making it partly the night before you will need 2 1/2 hours for the dough to rise the first time. 
Bake time: 25-30 minutes

For the dough:
3 large eggs (at room temperature)
1/4 cup granulated sugar
3/4 cup buttermilk (at room temperature)
1 1/4 tsp salt
1 packet Instant yeast
3 TBSP lukewarm water
4 1/4 cups I bleached all-purpose flour
6 TBSP butter, softened  

For the Caramel Glaze:
6 tbsp butter
3/4 cup packed light brown sugar
3 Tbsp light corn syrup
2 tbsp heavy cream
1/8 tsp salt


For the filling
4 tbsp butter melted
3/4 cup packed light brown sugar
2 1/4 tsp ground cinnamon
Pinch of salt
12pieces of bacon, cooked until still pliable but not crisp

For the Topping 
Rest of the package of bacon (4-6 slices) cooked till crispy & chopped

Instructions:
THE NIGHT BEFORE:
1. Mix yeast & water in a small container (I used one of my 4 oz crystal tumblers). Set off to the side.
2. Cream the sugar & butter together
3. Whisk in eggs, buttermilk, and salt into sugar & butter. Now add the yeast
4. Now whisk in 1 cup of flour. Then whisk in another cup. Now I move to my wooden spoons. Adding 1 cup at a time. The mixture should feel wet ,but not sticky. If needed add the other 1/4 cup of flour
5. Place dough on a clean lightly floured surface. Knead by hand for one minute. 
Lightly spray a large bowl with non-stick cooking spray. Place dough inside. Cover with cling wrap and place in frig over night.

For filling:
Mix melted butter, brown sugar, cinnamon & salt in a small bowl cover and store overnight. 

THE MORNING OF:
Set out your dough to warm up. 

Cook bacon 12 piece but not to crispy. It helps to use the microwave 4 minutes on high. I check them if they are not done I cook 1 minute at a time. Let them cool

Caramel glaze:
1. Place butter, corn syrup, brown sugar, heavy cream & salt in small sauce pan. Stir  continuously until you have a rolling bowl on the edges of the pan. 
2. Spray the sides and bottom of a 13x9 baking dish. 

As boy:
1. Place the dough on a lightly floured surface and roll out until you have 12x16" rectangle. 
2. Evenly spread your filling over the dough. 
3. Standing with the long way in front of you, use a pizza cutter to divide the dough into 12 (approximately 1") strips. It helps if you it in half, then cut each piece in half and finally cut three piece within each of those.
4. Lay 1 piece of bacon on each strip. Roll them up and place them snug into your 13x9'pan with the glaze on bottom.
5. Cover with cling wrap and let them rise 1-1 1/2 hours until doubled in size on the counter. It is a little hot in Texas so mine actually rose in 45 minutes today.

Baking & finish:
1. While the dough is rising cook up the leftover bacon from the package (4-6 slices) in a skillet until they are crispy. Once they are cool I crumbled them and set aside. 
2. "Food Folk and Fun" blogger recommended this baking method and I really liked it. Place oven rack in the lower middle position and put my bar stoneware upside down on the rack. You cold use a pizza stone or inverted cookie sheet. 
Preheat the oven to 350 degrees Fernheiht. 
3. Place your pan of buns on top of the bar pan (or what ever you chose to use) and bake until golden brown about 25-30 minutes. 
4. Place on wire rack to,cool for 10 minutes. I inverted my large platter on top of the bun pan and then flipped them over together. The buns came right out beautifully. Now top with your crumbled bacon. Serve warm. 

They were just perfect with my French Press coffee. 





Thursday, June 11, 2015

Pride Leading to Destruction

Pride lead to my fall--

Today as I read and looked at the scriptures surrounding the stories of Job and Peter in the story, I became acutely aware of where my pride lies within my own life. In so many areas of Job's life he was righteous but that was just it he had great pride in the fact that he was righteous. Only God is righteous. In Peter's life he had great pride in his strength. Despite Jesus telling him to his face that his pride would lead him to his own destruction, he wouldn't listen. Peter even vehemently declared to Jesus' face that he was wrong.

I examine my own life and realize that is/was me. I was thin again and I thought I knew what to do to stay thin. NO way was I going to eat in such a way that would cause me to do contrary to that. Uh yeah...pride before the fall. As I stated before, it crept in slowly till the unhealthy eating overcame me and now I am 35 lbs overweight again.
My Current Path--

I have a lot of work to do to get back to where I need to spiritually and physically. The task seems overwhelming especially with that vast number staring me in the face. Also, my health of my back and nervous system, and my advancing age (52) lead me to want to discouragement. My only hope is to repent of this pride and trust that God will lead me to renewed strength, health and His loving arms. Even if I am never completely healthy or slim, I know I have Christ and to cling to the guidance of his Holy Spirit, no matter what my outward appearance, is my joy and strength. I don't know how, but I know that He can lead me to conquer the demons that have entangled me.

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Beware!!


Today I read and learned how deceptively cunning Satan and his army really is to me. He is dangerous, and not a comical cartoon. I need people that will keep me accountable. That will help me not to forget to not take Satan and his army lightly. I must have a healthy respect for how much danger I could be in if I am not careful.

The destroyer- he will do anything to control what I put in my mouth. I need to have his word posted before me and everywhere in my house.

He is vicious- he never has a merciful moment. He will definitely strike when I am most vulnerable. I know that my vulnerable times are when I am bored, when I have free time/unstructured time, right after school or evenings, or right after a meal. Also, there are times of heightened emotion or mental duress. For example, when I am hurting physically, frustrated, angry, hungry, lonely, tired, stressed over school or upset. These are all times there is this temptation of that demon that leads me to make that decision to eat.

False ally  - he sneaks in like a friend or comforter with food or rewards. He only shows me or reminds me what I love..the tasty bites. He lies because he is a liar. I must fight not to listen, to counteract with truth. For me his offers food as a suggestion for easing my emotional or mental turmoil. He lets me believe it will ease my pain. It looks so good or innocent on the surface. Just one bite. In the en it leads me to many bites, destructive eating habits, an healthy lifestyle and ultimately ashamed of just how overweight I am becoming.

My hope is to stay close to the shepherd and surround myself with Christian leaders who will keep me honest and accountable. I need to remember I Peter 5:8 and Psalms 23.


Tuesday, June 9, 2015

Truly Free Journey Day 2

Today as I sit down with my cup of coffee and read, some interesting revelations were brought to the forefront for me. Through reading Truly Free today God revealed to me warnings of to the way I have let Satan into my life and to take control. I understand how Pastor Robert talks about how not all things that go wrong or disease are because of Satan, but in the repetition of succumbing or repeatedly believing a lie Satan can take hold.
1) Repeated sin-I have willfully and repeatedly over and over chose to eat unhealthy foods. This sin has lead me into bondage not freedom. The good news is that I can become free from this bondage to sin. Jesus can set me free. I feel I must give the Holy Spirit permission/freedom to rid me of my bondage to an unhealthy diet. I have let food be my master-sugar, fried foods, high calorie foods or just eating too much. I have felt the weight of this bondage for some time. I have cried and chastised myself (as I mentioned yesterday), but God has heard my cry and brought me to his anointed word through Pastor Robert Morris. In his openness to share what God has taught him and scripture I see that I have served the devil as my master by succumbing to making those unhealthy choices.

2) My continued illness and unhealthy eating stems from a deeper childhood issue, as well. I remember people referring to me as fat or "just not as skinny or as pretty as my sister." I have lived out those words from Satan all my life. From my image of myself to every ongoing or past sin I have committed is either from trying to be as pretty or cute as others or dictating my view of myself through my weight. I have let commercialism, even others advice on beauty, dictate my decisions. I judge myself based on the other people around, yet never feeling as beautiful or as thin as those around me. In addition, I have felt "well I can never be as thin as.... or skinny enough and I have just believed I can never master my weight. It doesn't matter how much I weigh, I always see a fat girl in the mirror. I then go through the motions of what an out of control eating diet. I let satan's lies be my master, thus these lies increased my insecurities in who I am. A direct quote from the book as given me hope that I will gain a new perspective of myself and my sin:

"God has a purpose for you and me. We can't fulfill that purpose unless we take care of our bodies. We need to take care of the temple of the Lord."
And I would add, "but don't let that temple become your god." It is not about my body it is about my relationship with my Father God freeing me from the lies of the enemy.

3) Continued influence- I see now how I have allowed continued influence from satan skew my thinking. I need to stay away from influences of the occult and satan. I must walk humbly realizing I am vulnerable to the lies of the evil one.

Remember today, "He who is in you is greater than the who is in the world." I John 4:4 and "If the Son makes  you free, you shall be free indeed." John 8:36

I have confessed to God the sinful lies that I have bought into and made myself bondage to gluttony and wrong views of my physical worth. I ask God to set me free from my bonds, to deliver me. Deliver me Lord. May all spiritual oppression be done away with. Fill me with the full measure of the Holy Spirit. In Jesus name, Amen
 

Monday, June 8, 2015

Truly Free Journey

Today through the blessed writings of Pastor Robert Morris, I became aware that satan's demon or demons are oppressing me, but I John 4:4 states, "He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world." This scripture is meant as an encouragement, yet this is not the way I have been living. Pastor Robert had my attention from the intro, as he talked about the people in Exodus and how quickly they forgot about their oppression in Egypt and began to grumble. I saw started to see this scripture just slightly different than I ever had before.

I remember the freedom of conquering my addiction/oppression to unhealthy eating. I was so happy and felt so free back then, but two things happened to my thinking. I let pride and (I will call it) "judgmentalness" creep in. I did not keep my doors and windows shored up against the temptations of Satan. If others were still overweight I would think, "why don't they just diet/eat more healthy? I did it and it works." or "They must be weak." Evil, mean, I know. And you call yourself Christian. I know! Believe me I know many things a person could think of me if they knew the true thought in my mind. I have shamed and guilted myself over these every time.

The second demon of oppression I let creep in was, "Oh just a little cheat eating here or there won't hurt." As Pastor Robert talked in his book about just opening the door a smidgen to peek at a thief being ridiculous and frankly dangerous, so is my opening my thoughts or actions open to unhealthy eating. Every time I opened that door I was opening it wider and wider to more and more unhealthy eating. By inviting my temptation/oppression back in to take control over my mind and will more and more. Thus, I am overweight AGAIN. Boy now I look stupid for the "judgmental" thoughts that entangled my dark mind. But I sure do understand how easily satan's demons take hold of you and they grow more  powerful as I compromise and let them. Soon I felt completely powerless over my eating. I gave up. Every morning I would say to myself, "I will not eat unhealthy food no matter what or I have to stop!" Only three hours later when that cake, cookie or french fries are there or being offered I would give in. Why? I would ask myself. Then begin shaming myself mentally.

As I begin reading Truly Free I have become acutely aware of my oppression. It has brought me to my "knees" as I prayed I began to sob. Actually in the paragraph before I began to weep as I visualized him writing with sincerity and conviction that whoever prayed the words he wrote they were for them, for me, so I wept as I prayed clinging to the hope.

I knew I needed to start journaling this journey from the moment I started the introduction of the book. I thought which physical journal from the many incomplete ones that sit collecting dust on my bookshelves should I write in. I knew I had one in the closet that I had never used. I received it a few years back from my secret pal. Also, I think I have a nice leather one somewhere. I decided on the one in the closet I had never used. As I grabbed it from the shelf, I read the scripture on the cover, and again I began to weep. It was as if God was speaking to me. How appropriate these words are. "Therefore, if the Son has made you free, you are free indeed." John 8:36. Again, in God's perfect orchestration, He knew on day I would discover my oppression or it would be revealed to me in a way that would break me, yet open me to true freedom and healing.

This is only day one, but I enter into this journey with more hope than I have felt in several years at least the last three years. I have to be honest it is just a glimmer of hope. That thought of "can this be real?" and "can I really do it?" is still creeping in with the "no" answer. But what if Jesus can really free me by his power. Then I will cling to this promise with all the mental  power I have.

Today after having just had breakfast I weigh 185 lbs. I need to be or want to be 150 lbs or less. (125 lbs. at the least)
Can I cling to Jesus? Jesus take power over my oppressor.

I just threw away a Hershey bar. Although it is not my favorite but is was a gift. I held onto it just in case I "just needed a little something sweet." See my oppression runs deep.

Here I begin.